Fearless

Dear sweet fantastic Gary Lu took me to a Taylor Swift concert. I have a major girl crush on T. Swift. Not only was I treated to a concert, but I also got copies of both Taylor Swift CDs. I may or may not listen to them non-stop. It's been about two (2) weeks since the concert and I am pretty sure I haven't spent much time listening to anything else. I feel like a 12-year old girl. I guess that's one of the reasons I really enjoy Taylor's music, it reminds me of how I felt when I was young.

So the other day I was reading the cover of T. Swift's Fearless album and I was moved. That's right. This dead inside girl had a moment!

As a kid I wasn't afraid of anything. I jumped off a 30-foot high-dive when I was two (2). And that was just the beginning. I never thought twice about anything. I may not have done much well, but I was NEVER afraid to try. Somewhere along the way, I lost some of that. But, when I read the cover of the Fearless album, I decided that although I would never trade all the lessons I've learned in my life for all that I didn't know as a child, I can change what I choose to do with all I have learned. And, I can love and want back the T. Swift kind of fearless I was as a child.

“FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s FEARLESS to stop believing them. It’s FEARLESS to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright…That’s FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. Because love is FEARLESS.