To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Losing it!

In the past 2 nights, I have gotten 6 hours of sleep... not EACH night - TOTAL! I like being busy at work, but not until 3 AM... that's a bit much.

This is what happens when I try to fit too much stuff in. I really didn't have enough time to do all the things I said yes to last week... but, I managed to do them all anyway. Something had to go... it was sleep!

I really do need to learn to say no just every once in a while. But, I can't seem to pull it off! I am beginning to think it might not ever happen... oh well! I am cool with it I guess.

But, my brain is really starting to get frazzled. And, I am pretty sure no one believes me when I say "I used to be WAY smarter, I swear!" Don't worry, I HAVE stopped giving that disclaimer, no one believed it anyway.

Anyway, I think all the lack of sleep is starting to catch up with me... and, I will give you 2 examples that will definitely substantiate my claim:

(1) The other day I walked into my house and grabbed some ice cream (which was mine) out of the freezer, and then I grabbed a spoon and walked into the living room and had this conversation with my roommate:

Ali: Marci, am I allowed to eat this ice cream?
Marci: It's yours, Ali.
Ali: Yea, I know, but I can't remember if I am on a diet or not! No, seriously, am I?
Marci: I don't know, but I think you should just eat it.
Ali: Can I eat it straight from the carton?

Sidenote: One of my co-workers was complaining about my eating habits the other day, saying something to the effect of 'one day you won't even eat chicken and the next day you're making everyone eat cake, which is it?!?' I, of course, told him he shouldn't be confused. He had it figured out, it WAS in deed one or the other with me, it just depends on the day, but I'd surely keep him posted.

(2) I got a text message from one of my guy friends the other day, and I really had to stop and think about it. I am lover not a fighter, so I don't get mad at people too easily. I was pretty sure he was kidding, but my memory is so far gone, I have to admit I wasn't quite sure.

Helaman: Remember when we used to be friends? Why aren't we friends anymore?
Ali: Used to be? We are not friends anymore?!? Why, I can't remember. I think we are still friends right?
The sad part is I really had to think about it "I am not mad at this guy right? I mean I don't think so. I can't remember. I have no idea why I would be mad... hmmm....
Helaman: Well, we still are. Don't be scared.

The truth is I am way too busy for my own good... and I feel like maybe I should schedule in some sort of mental or physical or emotional breakdown... and actually, I tried to schedule one, but couldn't seem to fit it in until July. But now that I think about it, I have a proposal that turns in that same day and then a haircut appointment later that night (and my roots REALLY need to be dyed), so it'll just have to wait until maybe August! Oh well, I guess I'll keep plugging along then and pray that my brain will start to catch up!

And, my mom would be so sad if she knew how much diet coke I was drinking these days!


Pierce and Stacy said...

haha you and diet coke. You will never be separated, EVER!

Party of Five said...

What is it with me and San Diego? You have had to drive to San Diego way too much for me! You are an awesome friend! It was so good to see you! You were the best entertainment we could have had! :) Get some sleep!

Ali B. said...

Anytime Wendy! I LOVE you guys! I hope to see a lot more of you in the near future!